“I AM Presence”

Consciousness moves the centre of its attention to “I AM Presence” within boundaries, destroying thinking mind (which is either in the past or future and which always lacks something for ‘complete happiness’))))).(allayae)

energy of the Source

The external world supplies the illusion of energy only in case you percept the external world as something separated from you. Looking at the Sun and absorbing its energy you eat an illusion of energy, if you percept it as something separated from you (not on the level of mental but the sensations). Only feeling the Sun or any other part of the external world as an extension of own body we can absorb the energy of the Source not illusion of it. 

 

We were always told that without food, water and sleep our body dies and psychic is destroyed. But it doesn’t! It’s only the program and narrow presentation – Limiting the Source by frames of perception. The program prescribed from childhood by the external world not to let us unite with the Source of I AM.

the Day of my Solid body Enligtenment.

My Personal solid body enlightenment.

I Am is True reality

I Am is True reality. But Individual state of ‘I am’ – is illusion

As for example a man is sitting in the room and gathering an apple from molecules in space (by power of thought). Here it is almost gathered, pulsing. Here telephone calls and the man shifts his attention to the telephone and the apple disappears at once.

So do Individualized state of ‘I am’. While I am in the centre of this Individualized state of ‘I am’ – I don’t feel I AM.

There is nothing but “I AM”.

I understood that in time of the first experience “I AM” looked at Individualized state of “I am”. And in this case Individualized state of “I am” is looking at self-feeling “I AM”. I’m trying to understand how to deepen into I AM so much. (transmutation diAry http://transmutatebody.livejournal.com/  )

 

There is no greater predestination then to Be “I AM”.
There is nothing but “I AM”.

 

My Incredible life:from Pain to Enlightenment

Marat: Cosmic Unity

My work at 4^08 Am

(Bloody wisdom from Allayae) .... ahhaahha

The individualized state of “I AM” considers itself the character in which “I AM” plays.
The character doesn’t exist. As the shadow on the wall is just the reflection of a real hand. ( bloody wisdom... ahhaahha)))))

  It`s like a little child is shown a farfetched bear or cat with a glove. The glove is an Individualized state of “I AM” that considers itself as a Bear or a cat, a human being etc… but in fact the Hand rules (I Am).

 

(Bloody wisdom from Allayae)

It comes in… from inside you

He asked: and how would you  reach this condition then?

You cannot reach it anyhow! It comes from within. Neither mantras, pranayama, nor yoga… nothing will let you Reach it. Because only when you are Here and Now!!!!.. relaxed and Lively like a child – it starts to happen by itself!!!!!   It comes in… from  inside you (So bloody clever I got!)

Merry-go-round of characters.

Merry-go-round  of characters. 

I seldom write about this part of  my life. Many enlightened persons  talk and write about it.  Since  my enlightenment has come ( I do not like this word. I like to call it The Oneness) the peace fulfilled my entire life. Not only my mind, but body within.

    I was  born remembering  HOME ( the Source) and  with strong awareness  that  We are the ONE. I was talking with  Universe all the time. See the Invisibles)))  I was  experienced the Oneness  by  inner energy body since  childhood and earlier. My solid body was against this experience of the Oneness. It experienced pain and violence ( my  father’s beating). Me as a consciousness experienced Oneness and  Unconditional love. Because  of this dual and  opposite experiences my life  became a  nightmare. I couldn’t understand why others so cruel and behaved  like we were enemy. 

I was dreaming to turn my body into Light to come back HOME! Since  I was 13 years old, I practiced different  ways of  self-understanding. At 26 I gave  up. My body refused to work properly. I got Autism syndrome since I remember myself, but only at 21  I  understood  how it`s called. I couldn`t look straight into eyes of people.  Loud and rhythmic sounds  turned me into autoaggression, making my body go through some kind of epileptic attacks. It was really hard to live like this. There always were  attacks of dissociation.

I gave  up and told to the Universe:

-I will stop eating until my body comes to Light matter. I have  no strength  to live. I give up!

In forty minutes after I had manifested my promise, the Enlightenment for my Body came into my life.

From my Diary http://transmutatebody.livejournal.com/ :

“…__

The moment came when I felt like the plug in my anus had fallen out. And I felt that my self-awareness dropped down deeply into the Body of the Whole “WORLD”.
Just try to imagine: The WORLD has its own Body!!! And you are out of your body like a matryoshka, falling into deeper body –world`s body. Then you understand that it is YOUR body!
- Oh, God! THIS IS MY BODY and IT`s HUGE!!

It is impossible to put this experience into words and thoughts, even the images are useless. You need to live it within your body.

Then I felt that my body will die, but I AM! My body is the world .. went deeper .. the world is destroyed, and I still Am! (Sense of self-embracing that pervades everything and more..) . My body is the Universe .. and went deeper .. and included awareness of the “I AM”. I transmitted the sense of self awareness into sense of self identity, trying to get self- consciousness.

Then I went deeper into awareness of that part of myself which was being experienced it. I realized  that Everything would collapses and  I would aware myself as a TRUE Self. At that exact moment all boundaries (desire to live and losing Leslav, “what about me?”)  turned on. And I thought : “I do not have  to live and create all I am creating everyday for  the People, because  They are Me, do I have to?”
I began to let go of it and  gave  myself feeling that  I  was ready to go HOME. I was ready to collapse everything as  I didn’t  lose anything at all.

All this is going to die, to be destroyed but I AM still here. I was born within this knowledge. But  now I experienced it deeply with my body. This  very strong feeling  was fixed in me. Not  in my body, but in ME-e-e-e ( In  my Self-awareness as I AM) !!!! I ever disappeared anywhere. I will always be here. Because I AM. I just exist as  the presence of “I AM” ,with no beginning, middle and end!

 I picked up a large pink Agate and came out of my little body into the huge body of the World and entered the body of the Stone. It was incredible .. I squeezed myself with my own hands!

 Yes, it was the Oneness!!! I experienced physically  to be myself as the stone and  the hands of my body exact the same time. It is extremely unbelievable. Those few seconds of the Oneness  changed    everything in me!  _.....”

And now my life is fulfilled with indescribable peace within mind and body. I know and experience everyday  life as imaginary life. It  is like, I has considered  this reality to be  REAL… ha-haah… ))) I try to do  my stuff with serious perception, but it is useless.  For this year and a  half after “the Oneness” I do not know more pleasurable thing that sitting on the beach, looking  at  the waves and people and… just to BE!

just to BE!

now my life is fulfilled with indescribable peace within mind and body. I know and experience everyday life as imaginary life. It is like, I has considered this reality to be REAL… ha-haah… ))) I try to do my stuff with serious perception, but it is useless. For this year and a half after “the Oneness” I do not know more pleasurable thing that sitting on the beach, looking at the waves and people and… just to BE!

 

 

1 of August 2011 Drawing 02

 

that is the most difficult thing to understand if you still have the personality. You are not bounded by any sense to live. When you  find yourself eternally and unified with all that exists you will  lose any fear to be "not as you have to". You  are flowing  on the waves of flaming and unconditional love. You feel the matter as  orgasm of the Source. And you can choose anything you want to do. Then change it and go on with it. There are no boundaries for anyone. But you are able to understand it by feeling it, when you live yourself as unborn consciousness.

Oh, I really happy to write my notes in English. It is a great pleasure for me!!!

I am drawing and with pencil it looks like to be pretty good. So now I understand that the problem is to use to  tablet.

I DRAW  it today!